Backdated post?

as-salam
hye there

This is a backdated post. I was updating my labels. Tak sedar benda ni draft pun sebelum ni. Oh well. Here goes. 

Bucket wish list

I am happy.

One of my bucket list is coming true~ Yeay! It's a process, currently we are pacing slowly. But I think we'll keep increasing the pace. 

I think I will wait until I master a topic (or at least anything). Sangat bahagia bila buat bersama-sama cinta hati. 

I owe you one, baby. Will repay you with interests~ 

Update: We are currently half way through. Bulan Mac ni habis, hopefully we can pass with flying colours :)

Insomnia?

Of late, I can't even sleep at night. I baca, seseorang akan tidur selepas 7 minit. I dah golek-back flipped-went berserk pun masih tak boleh tidur. Pathetic. The thing is, I tak suka tidur petang. Jangan diamalkan tidur petang. Dah mula, sah-sah tak boleh nak berhenti. 

The only way for me to get my biological clock right is to spend time at MumDad's place. Main dengan Adam seharian, then malam penat, terus tidur. Tapi bila balik rumah semula, my pace slows down to the VERY minimal speed. Masak slow, buat kerja lain pun slow.. Paling menyeksakan, nak makan segala jenis kek/puding tapi super malas nak start. Ni pun I baru je start baking semula. If rajin, esok nak buat moist choc cake. Tadi dah try RVC. Yummeh~

Update: I still bake once in a while. Currently tempted to try something else. Tapi kena tunggu esok pasal hari ni bahan habis. Bummer. Oh currently I can sleep from 2-3 a.m till 6 a.m. No more 6 or 7 a.m baru nak tido. Alhamdulillah.

Bau?

I tak tahulah nak cerita macam mana. Tapi I selalu rasa I ni berbau albeit the times I took my bath whatsoever is more than enough (or at least at a normal rate as other normal human being) I tak bergerak banyak (read: tak exercise) So tak de lah berpeluh sangat. Tapi rasa macam tu lah. U all ada petua nak hilangkan bau tak? or perasaan yang diri sendiri busuk?

Kalau ada, please share with me, ya1

Update: I had my shower way more frequent these days. Sehari 4, 5 kali pun boleh. Hubbyku sayang dah install water heater so malam-malam/pagi-pagi buta pun I mandi je. Then, spray perfume. Lepas tu basuh baju letak Downy+Softlan untuk meningkatkan keyakinan diri ketika keluar rumah. I rasa ada kemungkinan juga berkaitan dengan environment kat sini yang agak dekat dengan laut, sebab kat rumah MumDad I tak hadapi masalah ni :)

K la.

Till then.

Daa~

Gambar hilang :(

as-salam
hye there

I ni sebenarnya tengah kerjakan sesuatu. Sesuatu tu memerlukan gambar-gambar masa wedding I & masa engagement.

Jadi, satu-satunya sumber untuk I dapatkan gambar-gambar tu, tak lain tak bukan, dari blog ni la kan.

Tadi I buka satu-satu entry yang ada gambar yang I upload sendiri. Guess what, semua gambar dah tak ada! Can't be displayed. Huhuh.

Maka sekarang I penasaran la. Jadi blur semacam pulak. Huhuh. Nanges. 

CD gambar tunang hari tu I tak ingat I letak mana. Wuwuwuw. I rasa dalam kotak. Kotak kat Bangi kot. Hm. SO sad. 

Ok lah. Tu aje. Tak tau la ada update ke tak nanti ni. 

Till then

Daa~

A glimpse of my ttcian side :)

As-salam 

Hye there

I dah lama juga tak cerita pasal kami kat sini kan? Sekarang I aktif kat blog ttc I tu. So yeah, no babies photos here yet. Heheh.

Talking about being a ttcian, I have no regrets. The road was less taken. However after trolling along this road, we realize that there are other people who can troll together with us. Mainly we share experiences, tears and joys. We are so happy to know when a ttcian friend successfully conceived. We pray the best for them. I have never thought that I can be ecstatic over hearing a stranger's pregnancy. But yeah, that is our culture now.

Outside our community, the world has been good to us. I mean, we always think about the positive side of every questions. If being asked "Dah ada anak?" that would mean people are still care to know. I thanked them and ask for their prayers :) If being told, "Kamu tak pandai buat tu" or "Janganlah tunggu lama-lama. Dah tua lagi susah nak mengandung". Yup, it does sting but usually I would just laugh it off and pray so that they would understand ;) Plus only the elders have the guts to say such stuff. So, yeah. Takkan nak melawan pulak kan? Chillax sudah. Hehe.

On the bright side, I am now more aware of my body condition, about discharges and what do they mean, about treatments and how they work, about supplements and how do they help in conceiving, all the jargons.  Still, sometimes I got confused because sometimes there is the denial or hope arise for wanting to conceive so badly. Contohnya, ada blood spotting on the day aunt flo (period) should come. Was that period or implantation bleeding? Macam tu la lebih kurang.

All in all, I am so blessed with a wonderful husband who has never questioned our fate. Anak tu rezeki, rezeki dari Allah. Kadang rasa sedih tu datang bila orang tanya dia pasal anak. Kalau org tanya I, I ok je. Funny.

Wrapping things up, I hope people can be more sensitive towards us, ttcians. We would appreciate your prayers. By saying sensitive bukanlah nak ucapan sabar or sympathy. Maybe empathy would be great. Believe us, just because we didn't tell what we have been through does not mean we didn't do anything about it. "Aku dengar makcik dekat sini ni pandai mengurut. Apa kata kau cuba?" sounds thousands times better than "Ko tak pergi berurut ke?" or "Ko tak pergi jumpa doktor?" Just my two cents.

Ok lah. Nak tukar mode jadi surirumah balik. :) 

Suami nak balik makan ni.

Jangan nakal-nakal ye.

*tetiba jangan nakal. Please please please, kamu jangan nakal.. Lol*

Till then.

Daa~